Here it is 3am again and I have not interest in sleeping or eating. I know the agency is not calling this time of the night but I am sitting by the phone anyway. I checked to caller ID several times and nothing. My wish is that in 6 hours to get a call and head down to the agency to see our child's face for the first time. I know I will cry and sob when I do. This trip will be the longest two hours of my life.